“When I first talk to anybody with a heart problem, they talk like me. They act like me. It’s like they are me. They just forever stay in my mind. I think that everybody that has a heart problem, we’re just very kind to one another. The girls all call me with their problems. I think they can relate to me more.
“I never really thought about if the heart problems made me better. It’s the card I was dealt. Just make the best of it, you know? And I do find myself jealous sometimes. I find myself very jealous. I’m always wanting a life. . . unskewed. A life that does not have the problems I have. But if you have that life, why screw it up? Like the kids at Columbine. They had the freedom of anything they wanted. They’re just taking it for granted everything that they have. Their lives were just nothing to them. They threw it away. And I think every day, I wish I had that life. I wish I had his body.”